"A Weekend In Bellingham"

From out of nowhere, Motley Crue’s “Home Sweet Home” filled the room. Suddenly, I was awake, and after a few seconds to gather my wits, I discovered it wasn’t, in fact, coming from nowhere, but rather from my pocket.
“Tonight, Toniiiiiiiiiight! I’m on my way-ay-ay!” Vince Neil was screaming at me by the time I fished the busted-ass Razr out of my pocket.
It was my dad, wanting to know if he could sell my Xbox to the little boy down the street. (A matter of great importance that certainly couldn’t have waited till noon.)

Looks like I’m up, now, I thought. I lied there for a moment, and I couldn’t here anything but the passing of a few cars on the near-by intersection. Far too quiet, I thought. This could only be bad. I eased myself up on to my feet. Not knowing what else to do, I went to the window and looked down, into the parking lot to see if our cars were there. I half expected to see one missing and another totaled, but they were all there and appeared to be just as we’d left them.

I strained to recall how the night had ended, but in the craziness of my assorted memories, it never seemed to stop. The last thing I remembered was crawling back into the house through Nathaniel’s window.

There seemed to be something particularly disgusting about the muted infomercial on the TV. Jack Hamm, “6-Time World Long-Drive Champion,” kept shoving the head of his fairway wood at me, pointing at it as if to say, “Look how fucking sweet it is!!! You Gotsta have it!!!”

I thought back to the previous day…

With nobody home at the guy’s house when Kelly and I returned from the park, I went over to her place. She went to take a shower, and I found myself watching TV, alone, with Sarah. Who is this girl? I thought. She represented every new friend that my old friends had made without me, and I thought I’d pick her brain if the opportunity arose, and find out if there was more to her than the archetype in my mind.

Before Kelly had left, she had popped in some DVD she’s bought “Because there’s cute boys on the cover.” It turned out to be “The History Boys.” Kelly had left in disappointment. She claimed the boys weren’t as cute as they’d seemed on the cover. “An unruly class of gifted and charming teenage boys pursue sex, sport, and higher education.” It looked like a promising flick, but Sarah looked at me and said, “I’m thinkin about giving this movie the, uh…” She turned her thumbs-up into a thumbs-down and made a fart sound.

“But we’re only like 5 minutes into it.” I protested. She smiled.

“If a movie isn’t good in the first 5 minutes it’s not worth watching!”

She sounded serious. I debated about this for some time. Could she actually have meant that? Maybe I was reading too much into it. She couldn’t have been completely serious…but nonetheless she’d completely given up on this particular movie, and before I knew it, we were watching CSI instead.

We didn’t pay much attention to the TV, and started talking. She seemed authentically interested in who I was, much in the same way I was curious about her. She claimed she’d heard a lot about me. I laughed.

“What kinda stuff have you heard?” I asked, inquisitively.

“Well,” she began, “I can’t really think of any specific stories, it’s always just like, ‘Riley!’ Like, if we’re going to a party, ‘Riley!’s gonna be there.” Her eyes widened whenever she said my name, as though I was only talked about in loud voices in this house. I clearly had earned some kind of loud reputation.

“I have no idea how I got that kind of rep,” I began, “To me, I just kinda…do what I do…” I was coming down from being high for 2 or 3 hours, and wasn’t articulating well. I understood where the rumors of my knowledge of music and love of banghi had come from….but the loudness – where did it come from? I wondered if perhaps my youthful energy had given me a reputation I couldn’t possibly live up to now that the weight of the world and impending doom of upward mobility had strained my spirit.

She asked me about Evergreen. I sat silently with my mouth hanging open for a moment. How to describe it? Finally, I began, “Well, I really love it…most of the time. But, ya know, sometimes it drives me crazy.” I assumed she had some idea of the legend of Evergreen, but her confused expression told me she hadn’t, and I could see I had some explaining to do.

“ – Wait – what do you mean? Why does it drive you crazy?”

“Well, it’s just…the people, I guess. They’re so…weird, and sometimes I just wish I was here instead.”

“What’s weird about them?” She cocked her head to one side and I was now in the grips of a full-on interview. She seemed genuinely curious.

“Well, they’re…hippies, I guess.” I felt bad about using the H-word, but what other label so succinctly paints an accurate picture?

“Oh, so you mean it’s like here?”

This poor girl.

“No no no,” I said, laughing, “I mean like…real hippies.”

“Oh,” She didn’t understand. She was from a place called Kent, the eight-largest city in Washington. She’d clearly never heard anything about Evergreen.

She had a puzzled look on her face. After a few seconds she began again, “It must not smell very good at your school…It’s hard to imagine any school being more hippie than this one.”

I held back the laughter. “Really?” I asked, anxious to hear how she was gonna back that one up.

“Yeah! Sometimes, um, people come to class with no shoes on!

This poor fucking girl.

I wanted very badly to whisk her away to Evergreen just for a few days. It probably wouldn’t open her eyes or expand her mind any, but just for the freak-out. She seemed like a really nice girl. In fact, I knew she had to be nice to have befriended so many island boys and girls. She smiled between phrases, and just conversing with her for a while gave me a good impression of her, but Christ, I was worried for the well-being of my generation. This is Bellingham, I thought. This is supposed to be an open-minded University town, and after all, we’re in a blue state.

I didn’t want to make her feel bad, or scare her off, but I felt I had to say something on behalf of the “real hippies.”

“I don’t really wear shoes to class very often.”

“Really?” she asked. She felt bad. “Well, I mean…the people here, some of them just do it to like…make a statement or something, and it bugs me - ”

I interrupted her. “That’s exactly what I mean when I say, “Real hippies” – they don’t do it to make a statement. They do it because they like being bare-foot…and plus, ya know… I have plenty of friends at Evergreen who smell pretty damn good.”

She laughed.

The next morning I was making the transition from tipsy to hung-over when Nathaniel walked into the room with a smile that said, “Hey, buddy. Crazy night.”

“I was soooooo drunk…In a gooood way!” sang Nathaniel, as though he was trying to convince himself. He grabbed the remote and drowned out the sound of “When The Music’s Over” by the Doors with an episode of Full House.

Everyone seemed to be trapped in a subway, with Uncle Jessie convincing a young man to go back to school. Bob Saget was sporting a ridiculous brown blazer. Kimmy Gibbler, much to my dismay, didn’t seem to be in this episode.

I didn’t see Sarah again for a while. When I finally did, she seemed really excited to see me, and she ran up and gave me a hug. I was glad I’d managed to navigate my way around such a strange and uncomfortable conversation without sullying my name. At least, it was uncomfortable for me. The poor girl was just trying to get to know me, but all I could think about was…the state of things, and what it means when a good-hearted girl grows up in an environment like this one, and worse yet, she stays in essentially the same environment for college. It’s conversations like the one I had with Sarah that make me praise Evergreen, through day after miserable day of rain, punctuated by the occasional B.O.-riddled elevator.

But unfortunately, Evergreen has taught me a lot, and the more you learn, the less you know. For instance, I have no idea how day after day of CSI and hung-over mornings of Full House marathons will prepare my generation for the intellectual struggle of adulthood. Fortunately for my island friends-turned-Western Washington Vikings, there are thousands of mindless office jobs waiting for them in the system.

Growing up around ignorant buzz-words like “hippie,” slapped to death with brutal, mostly undeserved stigma, has left my peers close-minded and ignorant. It’s being perpetuated by apathetic college students whose parents have the money to buy their children TVs, but not the time to explain to them the social sciences, and the intricacies of delicate issues, like, for instance, why there are places like Evergreen where smelling good doesn’t always come before feeling good, and education comes before appearance; places where young men and women spend free moments reading or discussing pressing issues that will only become more important as we are handed the keys to our cities and states. Ask a Greener how they like school. They will tell you about class, their professors, new schools of thought, and books that are changing their lives. Ask a Bellingham frat boy, and they will tell you there are lots of girls.

The stale mornings, God, the stale mornings. Festering youth, eroding in a sea of cheap wine…Good boys and girls – real sweethearts like Sarah; their lives are passing them by. Without the pursuit of knowledge, what more is upright mobility than this: A rerun and a hangover?

Top 100 Songs Of 2008

The “Top 100 Songs Of The Year” list is a particularly masochistic and strenuous endeavor. More albums come out in December than in any other month – it takes at least a month to absorb a decent album – and nobody will give a fuck about 2008 come February. With several hot LP’s still lukewarm in the disc changer, it would most definitely look different if I did it again in a week. And beyond the 80-some albums I’ve kept from the past 12 months, there are of course others waiting to be discovered. But I’ve cut myself off – so here it is.

Aside from the typical dilemma of apples vs. oranges, or Neil Diamond vs. Scarface as it were, this year’s crop came with new problems; does Lil Wayne’s “Misunderstood” get bumped up a slot for the 6 minutes of hilarious and provocative Weezy-musings (weezings?) that follow the 3 minutes of lack-luster rhyming? Dare I rule out Kimya for taking the awesome initiative to make a children’s album? Is Ratatat’s “Shiller” really a song, or is it merely a platform for songs to stand on? “Paper Planes” was ’07 – but it really found another level when Bun-B and Daniel Gibson, er, Rich Boy hopped on the remix last January – does it count?!? And what’s to be done with The 3rd World, an enjoyable cocktease of a mixtape filled with infuriating repetition and sloppy production on otherwise Top-100 quality joints? *Sigh* the mind of an unemployed, homeless, compulsive insomniac rarely rests, and certainly not when there are musical debates to be sparked. Hahahaha!!!

Ahem. As I was saying…

Proper perspective will only come with time but it seems 2008 was a middle-of-the-road year, musically. Stronger than last year, yes, but for all the waiting and all the controversy, has Nas made a weaker album than Nigger? Three 6 Mafia sold their two remaining souls to VH1 and yayo, respectively. Snoop failed to double-up on the surprising dopeness of Blue Carpet Treatment, and 808s And Heartbreaks was something like a niece’s piano recital - sure it was cute at times, but I can’t help but feel like I’m owed some cookies and a Dixie-cup of lemonade for indulging him for 45 minutes. L.A.X. has kept the jury out on The Game, but who knew The GZA was still peaking at age 42? (Yeah, peaking.) Slug’s diary proved to contain at least one more fascinating chapter, and Emc gave purists something to brag about while quietly mourning the predictable delays of releases from Eminem, Jay-Z, Dead Prez, Big Boi, Raekwon, Mos Def, Immortal Technique, Method Man & Redman, and the debuts of mixtape gods Papoose and Saigon.

Outside the realm of Hip-Hop, Neil Diamond made more dirty Rubin love with Rick. The remaining members of Queen teamed up with the venerable Paul Rodgers, only to channel the spirit of a poor, old, gay man’s Freddy Mercury. You heard me – a gay man’s Freddy Mercury.

Metallica sounded a lot more like 80’s Metallica (the last nail in the historical coffin of their tragically under-appreciated post-Black Album pre-St. Anger material (seriously, go listen to their cover of Blue Oyster Cult’s “Astronomy.” Now.)), but made the mistake of touring with The Sword, who outshone them like Heath Ledger outshined that-guy-who-played-Batman. I’d say The Sword is the best metal band from Texas since Pantera, but Pantera can only wish they’d rocked so hard. Tom Morello tested our patience for rock with another Nightwatchman LP, The Raconteurs made Meg White look like Meg Griffin, and Axl finally, finally, finally released Chinese Democracy and could perhaps have made Guns N’ Roses a real band again if he could have just resisted the urge to fire Buckethead.

But enough talk, let’s hurry up and get to the list so you can scroll down to #1 and find another Wu-Tang-banger like last year (jk?). Enjoy.



100. “Broken, Beat & Scarred” by Metallica
99. “Under The Boughs” by The Sword
98. “Better” by Guns N’ Roses
97. “Walls” by Beck
96. “The White Sea” by The Sword
95. “Like the Rest Of Us” by Atmosphere
94. “The Storm” by Snowgoons feat. Boom Bap Project
93. “U Let Me Grow” by Emc
92. “Certain Death” by Brad Sucks
91. “To Take The Black” by The Sword
90. “Lay It Down” by Al Green feat. Anthony Hamilton
89. “I Got Mine” by The Black Keys
88. “The Black River” by The Sword
87. “If The World” by Guns N’ Roses
86. “On The Rise Again” by Kool G Rap feat. Haylie Duff
85. “The Unforgiven III” by Metallica
84. “Mr. Carter” by Lil Wayne feat. Jay-Z
83. “Swagga Like Us” by T.I. feat. Kanye West, Jay-Z, & Lil Wayne
82. “Do Ya Thing” by Ice Cube
81. “Priceless” by Flo-Rida feat. Birdman
80. “Sledgehammer” by Invincible
79. “Dropping Out Of School” by Brad Sucks
78. “You Can’t Stop Me Now” by The RZA feat. Inspectah Deck
77. “Harlem Renaissance” by Immortal Technique
76. “Alphabets” by The GZA
75. “7 Pounds” by The GZA
74. “The Kramer” by Wale
73. “Kindred” by Akrobatic feat. Brenna Gethers
72. “Mecca And The Ox” by Vast Aire feat. Vodul Mega
71. “Misunderstood” by Lil Wayne
70. “The Switch And The Spur” by The Raconteurs
69. “Gone Like Rain” by The Nightwatchman
68. “The Matrix” by Black Milk feat. Pharoahe Monch, Sean Price, & DJ Premier
67. “We Alright” by Emc
66. “Cinema” by The GZA feat. Justice Kareem
65. “Volcano” by Beck
64. “Low” by Flo-Rida feat. T-Pain
63. “Chemtrails” by Beck
62. “I’m Wild About You” by Al Green
61. “Love And Appreciate II” by MURS feat. Tyler Woods
60. “American Boy” by Estelle feat. Kanye West
59. “Big Fists” by Azeda Booth
58. “In Her Music Box” by Atmosphere
57. “Red Moon” by The Walkmen
56. “Nina Ross” by MURS
55. “Maiden, Mother And Crone” by The Sword
54. “That Was Just Your Life” by Metallica
53. “You Make Me Better (Remix)” by Fabolous feat. Raekwon & Ne-Yo
52. “Be A Nigger Too” by Nas
51. “Guarantees” by Atmosphere
50. “Halfway Home” by TV On The Radio
49. “Total Breakdown” by Brad Sucks
48. “Gangsta Rap Made Me Do It” by Ice Cube
47. “Get Used To It” by Ice Cube feat. The Game & WC
46. “Be Prepared” by Akrobatic feat. Little Brother
45. “Hood Mentality” by Ice Cube
44. “Love The Way” by MURS feat. Tyler Woods
43. “Don’t Give Up On Us” by Emc
42. “MVP” by Ludacris
41. “Sorry” by Guns N’ Roses
40. “Get Cha Issue” by Bun-B
39. “Me” by Atmosphere
38. “EMC (What It Stand For)” by Emc
37. “Around The Bend” by The Asteroids Galaxy Tour
36. “Painting” by Atmosphere
35. “Who We Be” by Emc
34. “Pretty Amazing Grace” by Neil Diamond
33. “Rising Down” by The Roots feat. Mos Def & Styles P.
32. “Don’t Know How To Act (Screwed & Chopped)” by Flo-Rida feat. Yung Joc
31. “Let Us Live” by The Game feat. Chrisette Michelle
30. “I Love College” by Asher Roth
29. “Groundbreaking” by The GZA feat. Justice Kareem
28. “Happy Home (Keep On Writing)” by Kimya Dawson
27. “The Waitress” by Atmosphere
26. “High Powered” by Scarface feat. Papa Rue
25. “What Up Man” by The Cool Kids
24. “The Day That Never Comes” by Metallica
23. “A Milli” by Lil Wayne
22. “Paper Plate” by The GZA
21. “Scared” by Jake One feat. Blueprint
20. “All Nightmare Long” by Metallica
19. “How Heavy This Axe” by The Sword
18. “Vagabond” by Greenskeepers
17. “There Was A Time” by Guns N’ Roses
16. “If I Don’t See You Again” by Neil Diamond
15. “Love Dog” by TV On The Radio
14. “Yesterday” by Atmosphere
13. “And I Love It” by MURS
12. “Long Story Short” by Black Milk
11. “You Don’t Understand Me” by The Raconteurs
10. “DLZ” by TV On The Radio
09. “Winds Of Change” by Emc
08. “The Sundering” by The Sword
07. “Life Is A Movie” by The GZA feat. The RZA
06. “The Science” by MURS
05. “Columbian Ties” by The GZA feat. True Master
04. “Feel It” by Emc feat. Money Harm
03. “Paper Planes (Remix)” by M.I.A. feat. Bun-B & Rich Boy
02. “The Angel And The One” by Weezer
01. “Pencil” by The GZA feat. Masta Killa & The RZA



Artists with the most songs listed:
The GZA – 8
Atmoshpere – 7
Emc - 7
The Sword - 7
Metallica – 5
MURS – 5
Ice Cube – 4
Guns N’ Roses - 4